Sunday, August 28, 2011

Settling In

Posted by eljamieson at 3:32 PM 1 comments Links to this post
I've been absent from my blog lately and it's not because there aren't things to say but because it's hard to know where to start.

The kids and I boarded the plane on August 12th to begin our first step in our new life. I didn't cry when we left but my heart felt heavy. It was surreal to walk away from my house and my life after so many years. But as much as I was sad to go, without Matt with us Edmonton really wasn't home anymore. If our family is not together then we are not home and in saying that I still am not 'home'.

The kids and I are settled in at my Mom's and having a great time. I can't begin to thank her enough for allowing us to come in and take over her house and essentially her life for an undefined period of time. I don't know what I would do without her and I am truly truly grateful. It's nice to have any extra set of hands and a babysitters just a phone call away! Tonight we are celebrating Tyler's birthday and I actually get to be a part of it which is what I wanted from the beginning. We have been to the cottage, spent time with my Grandparents, next week I'll see my Dad and other Grandma. The kids are doing swimming lessons starting on Monday adn the next week Vaughn starts school. Life is great here but we aren't home yet.

As I said before home is when our family of 4.5 is all together again. In seeking the Lord and talking with good friends I get the sense that the Lord is on hold with the sale of our house. That something needs to happen in our hearts and lives to see that release. I am praying that Matt and I can continue to seek the Lord and find that as we grow closer to Him and put our focus on Him that the other details will fall into place.

Being in Ontario is great and actually seeing Matt even if it isn't everyday is wonderful. Now I am praying that our hearts and minds will be focused on the MOST important thing.

I have lots more fun stories and posts and I'll hopefully get to those this week but this what has been on my heart and what I want to remember. And after all as much as I love that other people read my blog it is really for me to look back on someday and remember where we've been and how we got where we are.


Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Goodbye's

Posted by eljamieson at 7:10 PM 0 comments Links to this post
With only 2 full days left in Edmonton I am realizing that I haven't done a very good job at saying goodbye.

There are so many friends that have been a huge part of my life here in Edmonton that I won't get a chance to say goodbye to. That makes me really sad but it is really my own doing. I hate goodbyes, I hate the tears that come and the sadness I feel so I've been avoiding them. I didn't really tell many people on Sunday it was my last Sunday. There were so many people I would have loved to have hugged and had that goodbye with but I just couldn't bring myself to go through the emotional experience. I hope that someday I don't look back and really regret this.

What I really hope is that my friends know how much they have meant to me. I was blessed to be a part of a wonderful group of women from the church. They took me in and befriended me and I will always be grateful for that. Just knowing these woman has changed me for the better and enriched my life. I am not naming anyone because I would for sure leave someone out and then feel awful but with my whole heart I thank my friends for being just that my amazing friends.

Matt and I have had amazing friends that have loved us and loved our kids. We have spent meals together, evenings together and loved just being the real 'us; with them. Warts and all these families have accepted us. Again in my emotional immaturity I have neglected to say a few important goodbyes. It's not a lack of love, I just don't think I'm really ready to say goodbye . . .

So, Edmonton I have 2 more days and a few goodbyes left that I can't avoid and I'm not looking forward to. I have loved my life here and leave a stronger and better person than when I arrived.

Love to you all!
 

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